Sunday, May 19, 2013

How To Keep Going



Sometimes it seems hard to keep going.  We keep struggling, keep believing - and nothing happens; or worse is that things do get worse. We rack our brain, Why? Haven't I had enough faith? I just don't understand, God? And we wait for an answer - sometimes that answer never comes. 

A mustard seed - That's all the faith we need. I know I have to have at least that teeny, itty, bitty speck of faith. So please Lord,  haven't we been around this mountain enough?

I keep feeling like this is the end and things have to get better - but my surroundings are yelling at me otherwise. One minute I'm giving in, want to fall on the floor and say, "I give up! I'm tired of trying. I've tried and tried and tried to believe - but what has that gotten me? Absolutely no where! God, why aren't you helping us? Please!"

Then in the next breath I'm saying, "Okay God, I know it can't go on much longer. I know we've learned the lessons we need to learn. I appreciate what I have. My husband has been humbled.  We've been fighting hard against the devil and our circumstances, we are trying so hard to give it all to you and surrender all. This growth lesson through the fire has to be almost over. Things will get better soon - they have to! Right, God?" 

I have to believe - I have no alternative. I know our life will return to some resemblance of our former selves. 

I believe ... even so Lord, please hurry ~